Reflection-Let Go & Let God
This past year was a year of transition and change. Some of these changes I knew were coming and others were not even on my radar. Here is a brief overview of some of the changes we experienced in 2017:
1. I became a certified Revelation Wellness instructor
2. We sold our house
3. My husband got a job in Maine
4. We moved in with my parents for 5 months
5. I started teaching group ex classes at the YMCA
6. Gideon went back to school
7. We bought a house
8. Luther started working with a new therapist
A lot happened in 2017 and it wasn't always easy. There were lots of moments that I broke down in tears asking God to bind my wondering heart to Him because I knew that I wouldn't make it on my own. There have been moments that I knew I was fully trusting in God's plan for my family but there were countless moments that I questioned what He was doing or why He had us walk the path we were on. I would love to say that I followed Christ perfectly and trusted Him every moment but then I wouldn't have grown in Christ this past year and I wouldn't have searched scripture to know more of God and who He is. There were definitely times over this past year that I didn't study my Bible or look to further my relationship with Christ and in those moments I struggled. I struggled to be the mom God calls me to be...I struggled to be the wife God calls me to be...the daughter...the sister...the trainer...the friend...the person God calls me to be.
Every year I ask God to give me a word to dig deeper into for the year. Two years ago the word was pray. I wanted to focus more on the power of prayer in my life. I wanted to deepen my relationship with Christ and become more intimate with Him turning to Him first in prayer. I searched scripture, I read books, I intentionally spent time praying scripture. It was a very fruitful year that I felt like I could look back and say that I significantly changed my prayer life.
This past year, I didn't feel like there was one specific word that God had given me. I didn't know why and I even questioned Him. Little did I know, He had given me the word and I dove into it without acknowledging that it was my word for the year because He didn't give it to me clearly at the beginning of the year. Friends, sometimes we get so caught up in what we think things should look like that we get too distracted to see what God is doing. A few weeks ago I had the hand slap the forehead. How could I be so blind, moment!
This past year, the word that God gave me was Shiloh <3 God was teaching me to find peace and rest in Him this last year. I even wrote a blog post about it. You can find it here if you want to know more about Shiloh. God wanted me to rest in Him even through the chaos of this last year. He wanted me to give it all to Him because He didn't want me to feel as though I had to carry it all on my own. At times I gave it to Him but in other moments I failed miserably at Shiloh.
Why am I sharing all of this?
I want you to know that even when we feel as though God isn't working, He is! I want you to know that even in the moments that you fail, He has you. I want you to know that you are not called to be perfect. You will fail. In those moments you need to repent and turn to Him. You are not called to do this alone. I also want you to know that God doesn't work on your timeline or the way you want Him to work. So let go of your ways and let God lead.
Let God wreck your heart for Him in 2018 <3
This “freedom in Christ Jesus” is the freedom from having to obey God to make us fully acceptable to Him, ourselves, and others. It's the freedom to say that we are more wicked than we ever dared believe, but more loved and accepted in Christ than we ever dared hope.
"Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us- for it is written, "cursed is everyone who is hanged on a tree'- so that in Christ Jesus the blessing of Abraham might come to the Gentiles, so that we might receive the promised Spirit through faith."
7"So you are o longer a slave, but a son, then an heir through God." ...9 But now hat you have come to know God, or rather to be known by God, how can you turn back again to the weak and worthless elementary principles of the world, whose slaves you want to be once more?"
"For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery ."